Dating with Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria and Autism.

When it comes to dating, I am the ultimate in epic fails…I had several crushes growing up…I was always mortified when they’d find out cos their reaction to that was always so dismayed and negative..only one seemed to know but was just too sweet to think negative about it..Michael B. in my high school…He most assuredly did not feel the same in return..but he left such an impression on me..one time I bit the floor coming down the stairs and everyone stopped and was just staring. He was the only one who came over to help me up and make sure I was ok. We had a class together, we were in the ‘STAR’ program (STudents At Risk..we were a bunch of vagrants and trouble makers lol), and he was very protective of the few of us girls in it. One time, this kid Kevin tried to lift my skirt. The next day I came to class, there was this protective circle of the guys in the class surrounding my desk, so Kevin couldn’t sit anywhere near me, I have a guess that it was either him or this one other guy who was also always looking out for us. His mama definitely raised him right. But he had a cute girlfriend, and I was the weird funny looking quiet little autie in the corner decent guys never liked back.

After high school, I had a boyfriend I met at a restaurant, he was our waiter…He lasted one whole week before he slept with a ‘friend’. Other than that, dating never got…