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Jealousy isn’t always what it seems
TRIGGER WARNING: things discussed include death, loss, and suicide.
Yea, sure, it is often possessive, obsessive, controlling, abusive maniacs who are jealous. But sometimes it is created from something other than abuse and control.
I have laid to rest all of my closest loved ones. In several cases, the loss was very sudden and traumatic. My dad and I found my granma on the floor in her bedroom, after panicking to get in cos the chain latch on her door was locked. She was left in the hall for days at the hospital, untreated, as she died from aspirin overdose cos a dentist didn’t prescribe painkillers and the pain was unbearable so she kept downing aspirin, while drinking the only thing she could bear to consume, banana smoothies. FYI, the potassium in bananas heightens the effect of medicine, so she was increasing the aspirin intake unwittingly. No one pumped her stomach or did anything to treat her. They just let her die in agony. In a hallway.
I watched my mom die days after she fell into a coma after her organs started shutting down as I was driving her home, thanks to a chemo pill she had taken at the hospital right before we left, just weeks after she was diagnosed with cancer. Her last words were crying, repeatedly saying she doesn’t want to die, as she went into that coma. I slept…
